it hurts, and it hurts so much

went for a regular bowl of indomie mee goreng for supper..
got a little burn on the edge of my palm when i accidentally held the metallic part of the handler while washing it up. it's a pain that comes gradually, worse as time passes, then goes off eventually

it's the kind of torment when u sent me that message in response of mine in july, a decision that should have and "had" been made months ago for a step we never should have took after the first, a taboo, an action that had consoled yet devastated both u and me

it was clear but unclear, it was confusing and hesitating, it was all just plain stupid. it was a result that was already expected, it was a bond never meant to be

we loved, needed and were there for each other.. thank you for the calls and encouragement, support and guidance, fun and companionship for the past few months, and i know u appreciated mine as well

it was a dream come true, and i still remember your words on that beautiful Sunday, when we first took each others' tingling hands and lips.. "we could had have each other"

i loved you, and i still do.. goodbye