it hurts, and it hurts so much

went for a regular bowl of indomie mee goreng for supper..
got a little burn on the edge of my palm when i accidentally held the metallic part of the handler while washing it up. it's a pain that comes gradually, worse as time passes, then goes off eventually

it's the kind of torment when u sent me that message in response of mine in july, a decision that should have and "had" been made months ago for a step we never should have took after the first, a taboo, an action that had consoled yet devastated both u and me

it was clear but unclear, it was confusing and hesitating, it was all just plain stupid. it was a result that was already expected, it was a bond never meant to be

we loved, needed and were there for each other.. thank you for the calls and encouragement, support and guidance, fun and companionship for the past few months, and i know u appreciated mine as well

it was a dream come true, and i still remember your words on that beautiful Sunday, when we first took each others' tingling hands and lips.. "we could had have each other"

i loved you, and i still do.. goodbye

Back on track~

things are getting back on track~

sharing some joy with yu tian and seniors for tomorrow's convo (erm.. later today? =P )..!
no more double classes in SL + a precious 5-day break - enough time for my PSM, assignments & hobbies. Wahaha..















the sad part is missing kajang frens' gathering.. missed all of you.. T.T

PHP vs ASP

it was an amazing journey during the months of july and august! finally sat back and really enjoying life as a web developer wannabe

started with HTML, XHTML, CSS and now, Javascript, PHP and later XML.. wonder how AJAX is used..

moreover, there'll so much more hybrid languages emerging in the future..

For server-side scripting, i chose PHP over ASP for the following reasons:
1. It's FREE
2. It's a C-based language, very familiar and easy to adapt
3. Works in both IIS and Apache
4. Platform conversion to total L(inux)A(pache)M(ySQL)P(HP)

the only setback now is setting up the Apache server. Gruesome process since i know nuts about cgi-bin, or knowledge on compilation in Visual Basic C++

gonna get over with this soon.. See to it!

Frust Week ==> Critical Level <==

1. Accused of stealing some pathetic papers
2. Ever changing tuition classes - a center that bitches the hell out of you on "integrity" and "responsibility" and then gives you DOUBLE classes and pays you for ONE
3. Mixing with people who wants EVERYTHING and be responsible for NOTHING
4. ANOTHER accusation of stealing. shitpie
5. Waiting whole night for groups that goes out for happy hour, park their cars at the gate, and comes back just to tell you - 你还冲了凉，打了DOTA？整个村在等你！I've checked at least 5 damn times to see if u guys are back. Took a bath came out and all this. Now who's waiting for who?

There's only so much one can tolerate.

Dudes, fuck you all.

Long Time

It's been awhile.. moved into my new home in Jln Kebangsaan, a 3-storey house and BIG rooms! it's a dream come true~
(even though i need to pay both college dorms and here) but hey, it's hell lot of freedom and 24-hrs internet!
2 extremely vital elements. Must enjoy this one year. ~MUST~

Illustrator Guide & PANTONE

Today's special: Adobe Illustrator CS2 video tutorial series!
Add-on: PANTONE color guide!

it turned out to be a colorful day to get a hold of the duo combo
Illustrator is a much preferable software when it comes to letters and fonts
it emphasizes sharper edges, and almost unseen smudges - cool for name cards, CD labels and banners!

say, where does pale orange and striking purple stand?
Solution: refer to PANTONE guide! Apple Inc has made it a point to provide tons of articles and perception on man's behavior towards color sets

can't help but to give Apple two thumbs-up for their contribution ^_^


the urls are awarded "my fave sites" recognition -- and they'll remain!

平井坚 Ken Hirai

我： “你平时听那累的歌噢？”
芬： “很多喔...”
我： “较喜欢的呢？可以即刻想起的两个~”
芬： “呃...就Ken Hirai和Ayaka吧！”

获取了才芬的专业advice就到百度捞歌...
原来之前在988听过,只是不懂歌手而已~
两首非常棒的 - ひとみをとじて和LIFE is
听了真感动...
一齐欣赏吧!

Life is... ~another story~

自分を強く見せたり
自分を巧く見せたり
どうして僕らはこんなに
息苦しい生き方選ぶの?

目深にかぶった帽子を
今日は外してみようよ
少し乱れたその髪も
可愛くて僕は好きだよ

風におどる枯葉
濡れた芝生の匂い
君と寝ころんで見上げた何も無い空

答えなど何処にもない
誰も教えてくれない
でも君を想うとこの胸は
何かを叫んでるそれだけは真実

むき出しの言葉だけを
片端に捨てたあの日
その向こうの優しさに
今なら気付けていたのに

凍えそうなベンチ
寄り添う恋人たち
いくつもの愛のことばが生まれては消える

永遠は何処にもない
誰も触れることはない
でも君が笑うとその先を
信じてみたくなる手を伸ばしたくなる

答えなど何処にもない
誰も教えてくれない
でも君を想うとこの胸は
痛みを抱きしめるそれだけが真実

A productive day

it's the first time takin an MC!
tak boleh tahan, better rest & heal than work & get worse

n this may be d only day to travel out
went to EPF office, CIMB, then USJ (and subsequently Subang Giant, MyDin, Subang Parade..)
wanted to visit Kathryn in Kelana Jaya to get books

but it's gotten late because my car keys are left inside the car, darn
75% efficiency, not bad wo... better than normal days!

韩国R＆B天后 - 朴正炫

Lena is an American-Korean R & B singer, ranging from English, Korean to even Japanese
accidentally terserempak with her 5th album when hacking into ah loon's ext hard disk (yes, it's what we call fate)

she does hip hop, jazz, rock, blues, techno, ballade.. you name it, she has it..!
and Lena has a strong yet soothing voice to back them up
something (i'm searching for this "thing") makes her distinct from Ayumi, BoA and Kaoru

now, it's become a personal mission to understand her songs
total vocal control.. all hail the diva!

Lena Park

专辑名称：《On & On》
发行时间：2005年4月13日

专辑里第十首《迷儿》

7th Week

it's the seventh week of training!

the interesting thing is, there's a fifth person leaving LTM
now, isn't that number kind of high?

there were 2 farewell parties, 3 treats (consecutively KFC and Pizza Hut *eew*)
5 leavers and 2 injury cases.

the last to leave was Low, the "Sarjan" who "wah si" in the electrical maintenance room
we're gonna miss u!

面粉果！

虽然已经很久没“下手”
今天终于煮了面粉果！
肉碎+冬菇+一些不明菜体 （呵呵，对菜没什么研究）

味道果然不错
胡椒粉有点太多，吃了两餐~
一个字 - 爽！

Wanted Weekend

it's finally friday!
2 days of rest and time for diggin info~

this 1 month of training has been very assuring
assuring of how "yin sat" this world is
well.. it's not something new, that's why i'm already digging my way out

==I WILL NOT WORK AS AN ENGINEER== Never!

i'll do it for my passion, but not as a career
4 yrs to becomin an irvine is just too long
would be far ahead by then
i can only see absolute uncertainty should i walk this path

so Boss, i'm gonna pass your offer =)

1st Step

UTM, here i come!
it was a real hot day, spending 3.5 hours cramped in a car stuffed with luggages
it was most relieving to make a stop at skudai~
(thanks mom n dad)
stayed over in Goodhope (i think), and pre-toured the oversized campus

felt totally excited
cuz hey, it's the beginning of the next phase of my life!!

FREEDOM!

i'm finally here!

ppl have been asking, "don't u blog?"
my answer was a straight no
i've always felt that it's too publicized, takes up lots of time (especially when there's no readily available connection) and, being me, i never liked talking about my stuff..
unless i needed to~

but hey, what do u know?
things took for a change
and now i'm part of the blogger community
(so, hi bloggers!! *waving arm*)
well, i realized that it's important to jot down the beautiful memories (and also the ugly ones, ya) of our lives!
so tS here (my nick, if you buddies haven't know it), has finally chose to reveal his DARKEST SECRETS to the virtual world!!

most of the most important events of my life happened in campus..
so even though i've been like 3 years there, i swear to retrace my extremely selected ROM in my brain
this is my story, and it all started in june 2004.